30/10/2014

Finally, is over. Everything that I had prepared for, has over. Deep in my heart is very sorrowful due to unsatisfied during my UEC exam. Now here am I , lingering, resting, glimpsing everything that the world have gave me. Seriously, I have no idea what shall I do after this thing. Well, I do have plenty of plans. Earn some money, take up taekwondo lesson, chase ying hui and other sort of things I wish to do.

But for all of this, pls let me take a rest 1st. Nights ~~

1/10/2014

A exams rushing like wind coming into my life, I began panic instead of staying calm. Financial problem, friends issue.etc. Has really being a big problem in my freaking life. I am a normal person, at such times still I will face exhaustion. I began to search for work to help on my tuition fees, began to play lesser game and study harder, began my insomnia month. Damn pek cek weh. 

Yet what could I do, it is for my very own future. If I give up, I would had lost everything in my life. Each dream that I wish to dream, each goal I wish to achieve, would rather be vanished instead of appearing in my life. 

Well, life as usual. I still go on prayer meeting, I still go on Sunday services, I still seek advice from Gabriel, I still pray for strength to overcome the sin I have. Yet in bottom of my heart I know, I am damn tired. Trying to taint my soul into sin to sleep, failed not succeed. Trying to take a good night sleep, adrenaline rush due to stress. Trying to study freaking hard, yet my body cannot take it. Who can help me currently, where all of mine, has gone.