A exams rushing like wind coming into my life, I began panic instead of staying calm. Financial problem, friends issue.etc. Has really being a big problem in my freaking life. I am a normal person, at such times still I will face exhaustion. I began to search for work to help on my tuition fees, began to play lesser game and study harder, began my insomnia month. Damn pek cek weh.
Yet what could I do, it is for my very own future. If I give up, I would had lost everything in my life. Each dream that I wish to dream, each goal I wish to achieve, would rather be vanished instead of appearing in my life.
Well, life as usual. I still go on prayer meeting, I still go on Sunday services, I still seek advice from Gabriel, I still pray for strength to overcome the sin I have. Yet in bottom of my heart I know, I am damn tired. Trying to taint my soul into sin to sleep, failed not succeed. Trying to take a good night sleep, adrenaline rush due to stress. Trying to study freaking hard, yet my body cannot take it. Who can help me currently, where all of mine, has gone.
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