23 - 10 -2015 (UTC - 0254)


Soon will be November, and then December and the year 2016 will start again.

I know by this time I should be sleeping but I just cant really sleep now, it is because of the damn Ice Breaking Telematch thingy. As I am holding the position as station master, I cant afford to sleep late way leaving my station nonconductor at the end. I am not going to do this.

In fact, I will raise my eyebrows until the end of this activity. It is to ensure everything are work under my hands are projected properly.

Few days ago, I begin attending the IBT manpower briefing and arranging the stations. It was really tiring but filled with joy. I met a lots of people and I feel that my instinct capability begin to run mad such as my leadership skills, confidence, emotional tackling improved a lot. The feeling are as amounted as an upgraded software, better.

Of course, seeing Nicole are unavoidable as she is also a part of our big family. She is indeed fabulous and supremely beautiful. My sights, standards are definitely high regarding facial features. Indeed there are also many wonderful, outstanding woman I make contact. Like leeng, she is just wonderful, pretty and loud in voice.

Just one thing Nicole are bad at, she just like cling on to other male to stir out attention. Not sure but maybe is that reason she always do beyond the line, and causes anger to rise. She is indeed aggressive and straight forward.

As wise adapt to situation like waters alter to the shape of sea shore. One must be smart to know what should be done and what shall not. It seems like she does not ever attain this matter. I hope she can figure out herself but not by our tongue.

Anyway, my heart moved in every conversation we have, as specially the moment where carrying her belongings. That particularly moved my urged to protect and protest. Being in a dilemma, whether should I  tell her about my feelings or just shutting up myself. Pretend nothing happen, as I am so good at it. I do not really know what to do right now.

Coming back to the IBT team, the people seems to like me. Thank God. Yet, I am sure that someone are being unpleasant about me and plot about me. I must be careful. Any good things you have build currently can be pulled down by a string of your enemy. I must carefully observe and try to be universal. Of course, being true are my principle in socializing. That's not going to change if anything diversifying happened. I am not going to be like people like yew wey, pretend and strike even the closest friend.

Who are my enemy?
Am I standing the way of righteous?
No, what I standing is just the path of being truth and kind.

I am tired of being kind,
still will be kind.
For my Lord are kind and holy.

I am sick of being nice,
still shall be nice.
For my Lord did not vindicate my soul because of my sin,
yet cover me with grace.

Shall not be lazy for tasks,
even from your greatest enemy or greatest allies.
As the Lord did not forsake you while you plea.
He answers and rescue you from death.

Act as Him,
the greatest protocol is to love.
Yet hate no.


From this IBT i understand one thing, serve men so that they will serve you. You must first contribute, serve extra effort. Only your men will listen to you. Merely talking men does not make any differences in tasking but disgracing himself.

Create resources for your men, so that they are motivated to work for you even you displease at doing so. So that you will gain respect.

I should get some sleep now jor.. nights~