9/7/2014

Feeling anxious today, anxiety fill so quickly, so suddenly.

Today, is the photo session for our s3 album, well... still sadly, no one wish to take a photo with me. Unless I really need to squeeze into their photo. A little bit jealous.

Well, is not that this thing really hit me hard again. Not ever, as we part of grow up, we need to accept the fact which people is different. Our topics for talks is different, our ways to fill life is different, all of our ways is different despite the main thing is still the same. We needed friends, family, lover, but all is different way. Some like big talking but they are not actually doing any shit; some doesn't like to talk yet they are responsible; some just like to go their own secret life; and many sorts of ways.

Sometimes, we shouldn't be selfish. In a sense where we want to have everything. IF, i have choose zhong han, yew wei as my best buddy, then no one would be able to replace them and I have to accept those who doesn't like them like me. Since we are a group. In fact i chose them, since both of them smarter than the whole class...

Look back, look back!
Why still think your shadow have no friends?
Look back, Look Back!
Saw it? Your past glorious friendship.
It never dies, and it will not die.
As long I have life and alive,
nothing gonna change disguise.

To: Zhao Tat

I have a great depress for you, son. Why you always want to cling on to the best group? Why have u changed to such glory seeking and honor delighting?

It is so disgusting.

I tell you, change back to yourself. Don't aim the friendship, aim to let people know your ways instead. Which is better? To know friends who only know to have fun with you or to know friend which know your ways and thoughts and able to confront you when u in the stain of blood of sins.

You surely know the answer. I tell you the very truth, no one goes to heaven before him, and you think your "friends" will be able to be with you and until then? You don't even know your own way, and you wish people to be with you.

Yes, tagging along with bunch of people is cool. Doesn't mean you need to tag along with anyone, come on la. In the adulthood, there will be many time you need to stand alone to fight the bloody hell war. You think normal friendship last? They won't even you now tag along with them, soon they will forget you and you will just be alone again.

So, my advice will be. Don't give a shit to your freaking childish thoughts and go on pls..